1:30 Home for lunch, going back to work.
1:31 Heart pounding, chest pain
1:35 Left arm and hand hurt, radiating pain left from middle of back.
1:36 Pain increasing, using right hand to support left hand for relief.
1:36 Thought …WOW this hurts a lot. I’m okay, relax, take deep breathes. Back to work. Simple afternoon planned. Go.
1:50 Leave for work.
1:54 Nauseous, driving. Pull over. Pain sky rockets, call husband. I’ll be home, take me to the emergency room please.
2:06 Emergency room. Wheelchair.
2:08 E.R. check in, Husband gives insurance information and symptoms, parks car.
2:11 Toddler staring at me from Dads arms. My pain must look very scary to her. I force a smile.
2:12 Enters Rapid Response team. They whisk me away
I THINK:EKG not invasive. Sticky things on chest. No pain. Pain now …waaay over the top.
I HEAR:Heart Attack, Morphine, Nitroglycerin
I HEAR: Have you had any aspirin today? Swallow these.
I FEEL: Shirt coming off, sticky things going on.
I HEAR: Heart Attack.
I SEE: Husband listening to nurse.
I SAY: What do you mean HEART ATTACK? I’m not having a HEART ATTACK! Honey…this hurts.
I HEAR: You’ll feel better soon, morphine, nitroglycerine, Heart Attack.
I SAY: I can’t be having a heart attack, I’m a VEGAN!
I SEE: Mans unfriendly face close to mine with paper in hand.
I HEAR: SEE THIS! This says, in all ways, you’re a VEGAN having a HEART ATTACK!
I THINK: Screw you.
I SEE: Friendly face very close to mine saying, don’t worry, you’re going to see LOTS of people in the room doing LOTS of different things. It’s okay, just relax.
60 seconds later my clothes evaporate.
I THINK: WTH!
I SEE: My jeans moving toward my feet. No snaps, no buckles, nothing.
I THINK: OMG! But wait…my panties?! What if my period is on?
I SEE: Panties floating away, still inside jeans. No period. Thank you GEEZUS! Hello menopause.
I HEAR: Arteries blocked/ look inside/ heart working? Heart attack
I SAY: How?
I HEAR: Catheter/ groin/ artery/ heart/ look.
I THINK: Chest/sternum/ not cracked open /okay.
I SEE: New face, friendly, close to mine.
I HEAR: I’m Scott. I’ll be your bartender for the rest of the day.
I THINK: Morphine. Smile.
I SEE: I’m covered with a sheet.
I FEEL: Levitated.
I SEE: My toes, my husband, Scott, random people in hallway.
I SAY: My toes are really pretty. Honey, I need a toe ring.
I HEAR: Nothing.
I Feel: No pain.
MS HUG or HEART ATTACK
Have you ever experienced either?
What do YOU think it was?