I was a block of Swiss cheese yesterday. Tears leaked from my holes.
Very early in the morning, that’s when it started…the leaks. Not until the day was done, did I look back, and see the source of my leakage. When I think of my brother, I am overwhelmed with sadness and it shuts me down. I didn’t want to give in to it, I wanted to be strong. Yesterday, I had things to do.
I should have stopped, sat down and stayed with the sadness. Instead, I kept moving; trying to run from it and… it chased me down. With every commercial on T.V. every stranger hugging in the street, every child in the Revco; I cried. Sometimes I only leaked, other times I poured, but, all day I did this.
I should have just stopped in the morning, and stayed with it. Maybe then…just maybe, my day would have been different.
Stay with it.
Have you been grief stricken? Have you found a particular way to deal with it? Hmmm,has it affected your MS? And if you don’t have MS, have you seen it’s affect in other areas?